hi pumpkin,
so what is going on with your hair?
i remember the last time i tried to color my hair myself.
it was a disaster. actually, in truth, i think it took a couple of disasters to realize
that i was not talented at coloring my own hair. anyway, i'm curious as to what shade of red your sporting these days.

my trip was - good! hard - a lot of hard work - but in the end, good. i did get sick,
and i think that was my body reacting but also i think it was the medicine working for me, in it's own way, clearing things out of my body that have been there for far too long. and now, for now, i am done. i am me, and that is good, and i am alive, and that is even better, and i wouldn't trade this moment for anything. i am present in each moment, being here, in this, whatever that means.

and, i am done torturing myself on all levels. this is who i am.
and to reach that point, well, i feel overwhelmed with gratitude.
this is who i am and i am very lucky to be this.

no more purging, no more mean thoughts, no more harsh judgements.
it won't be easy all of the time, and it won't feel clear all of the time.
but if i can find truth in those moments, feel them, and then let them fall
back into love, then that's ok.

too much speak for this early on a wednesday?

i love you and am always thinking of you.