hi,
i have plenty to write about i'm just not sure this is the right place to write about it all. i am good overall and looking forward to the jungle. and, i am struggling with two things. the first thing is what feels like a crink in my relations to my relations - specifically my cousin and his new wife, and secondly, the pressure for christmas plans is on, and it's freaking me out. i want to do my own thing, but yet, i don't know what that means.

so, in a state of flux, somewhat disheartened but always optimistic and hopeful.
and love love love you.